Crazy Mama

I’m in a fog.

I feel like my brain is split in two and there’s a tug-o-war for my attention.

Baby vs. everything else

Baby vs. work, house, Christmas, money, petty tasks at work, logistics, work bullshit…

I want to think about baby, but there’s only so much I can do and plan and prepare. I have a nursery with awesome baby clothes and a soft rocking chair and stuff to decorate the walls, but I want to do MORE! I’m trying to restrain myself, have some self-control and manage my focus.

Can I explain my insane need to have the baby car seat built right now? We won't need it for months, but I almost got out of bed last night to try and build it. Logically, I know I need to chill, but I just go on these rampages (in my head) planning things and mapping stuff out.

I don't mind being nutty for a while. It's fine because I know exactly when it will end. I just wanted to share this with my readers; particularly those of you who haven't witnessed a woman's pregnant insanity first hand.

Must work while I’m at work! Must not shop online! Must not drink caffeine! Must! Can’t! Must not freak out!